So that first time we touched, swear I couldn't breath Was I good for you, you were good for me You showed me how it felt, filled my heart with joy Now its dead and gone, was I just some toy What ever happened to, that you wouldn't leave If its good for you, who cares what I need It doesn't matter what, what I really want Seems you're really gone, and I cant move on My burning eyes right before a flood I never thought Id see the hot rain again I dont know if I can hold the levee Things aren't the same since you went and broke my heart What ever happened to, that you wouldn't leave If its good for you, who cares what I need It doesn't matter what, what I really want Seems you're really gone, and I cant move on My burning eyes right before a flood I never thought Id see the hot rain again I dont know if I can hold the levee Things aren't the same since you went and broke my heart

Twisted guts and shattered bone Is this what its like to all alone Twisted guts and shattered bone is this why you left me on my own

(monologue) I dont experience catharsis anymore, I cry and cry and cry. But no matter how many times I try to purge these feelings of you they float right back up to the top. You are simultaneously the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. you made me see myself in a different light. you helped me improve in ways I didn't even know I could. Now I dont know how I'm going to live through you striking me from the annals of your life. This is the one thing I told you I told you I would never be able to handle. I am no stranger to abandonment but there is only so much a fragile heart can take. I never thought the thing that would hurt me this bad would be you. And now I have to sit here and watch as you move on to someone new not even 2 months after erasing me from your life. Will you do the same to them eventually? or am I just some special fucked up case that deserves this special kind of hell? Am I a ghost in you mind? Am I a ghost I cant tell? Cause I am a ghost my mind I am a ghost in this hell Why did you throw me away? Why did you say those things that you say? Cause I am a ghost in your mind Cause I am a ghost I can tell (Monologue) So why do I forgive you? why would I give anything for you to just talk to me again? Why is the love I have for you apparently unconditional? Why do I love you? Am I a ghost in you mind? Am I a ghost I cant tell? Cause I am a ghost my mind And I am a ghost in this hell Why did you throw me away? Why did you say those things that you say? Cause I am a ghost in your mind Cause I am a ghost I can tell

if I'm being honest, the thing that scares me the most right now is you And if I'm being honest, the thing I want the most right now is you If I'm being honest, I still have those dreams about you and if I'm being honest, I still have those nightmares about you I wish I was a November dog with pointy ears and a big round nose maybe then you'd love me who fucking knows I wish I was a November dog With Big soft paws and a fluffy tail maybe then you'd take me out walking on a trail The you in my dreams is just like the you I remember The you in my dreams is just like you were in November I wish I was a November dog with pointy ears and a big round nose maybe then you'd love me who fucking knows I wish I was a November dog With Big soft paws and a fluffy tail maybe then you'd take me out walking on a trail The you in my nightmares is nothing like the you I remember The you in my nightmares is nothing like you were in November The you in my dreams is nothing like the you I remember The you in my dreams is nothing like you were in November I wish I was a November dog with pointy ears and a big round nose maybe then you'd love me who fucking knows I wish I was a November dog With Big soft paws and a fluffy tail maybe then you'd take me out walking on a trail The you in my dreams is nothing like you were in November The you in my dreams is nothing like you were in November