(monologue)
I dont experience catharsis anymore, I cry and cry and cry. But no matter how many times I try to purge these feelings of you they float right back up to the top. You are simultaneously the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. you made me see myself in a different light. you helped me improve in ways I didn't even know I could. Now I dont know how I'm going to live through you striking me from the annals of your life. This is the one thing I told you I told you I would never be able to handle. I am no stranger to abandonment but there is only so much a fragile heart can take. I never thought the thing that would hurt me this bad would be you. And now I have to sit here and watch as you move on to someone new not even 2 months after erasing me from your life. Will you do the same to them eventually? or am I just some special fucked up case that deserves this special kind of hell?

Am I a ghost in you mind?
Am I a ghost I cant tell?
Cause I am a ghost my mind
I am a ghost in this hell
Why did you throw me away?
Why did you say those things that you say?
Cause I am a ghost in your mind
Cause I am a ghost I can tell

(Monologue)
So why do I forgive you? why would I give anything for you to just talk to me again? Why is the love I have for you apparently unconditional? Why do I love you?

Am I a ghost in you mind?
Am I a ghost I cant tell?
Cause I am a ghost my mind
And I am a ghost in this hell
Why did you throw me away?
Why did you say those things that you say?
Cause I am a ghost in your mind
Cause I am a ghost I can tell